Raising My Three And Me

The unfiltered thoughts and happenings of a married SAHM


I’m Struggling With Writing A Blog Post

Photo by Illiya Vjestica on Unsplash

If I’m being honest, I’m just not in the mood to be writing. I miss the excitement I used to feel when I would start writing a blog post, or that freeing feeling as I type. It used to only take me 5-20 minutes tops in order to write and publish a piece.

But somewhere down the line, I just stopped.

I stopped being able to figure out what to write about.

Whenever I would think of something interesting, I would just stare at it in severe discomfort.

Somewhere between the idea and the final product, I just fall flat.

If I’m lucky I can get further than three lines before highlighting and deleting my entire text.

It just feels defeating.

I don’t want to be social. I don’t want to be perfect. I don’t want to have to worry about who is here. I don’t want to worry.

All I want is to not only feel the love and passion of my writing come back but to also get out of my own way.

I miss the simplicity of my old blog post writing.

I’m so tired of being an all-or-nothing perfectionist with severe mental illnesses.

I’m just so tired.

So, although this is far from any original idea that I had – sometimes you just have to write and publish.

Nothing witty or inspirational or organized here, just me forcing myself to sit and write through my heavy, tired eyes and click publish.

Maybe it will take a few more of the journal online diary-like blog posts, maybe it will take months before the old blogging bug comes back and I feel passionate about writing again.

But if not, this is still me pushing through the exhaustion and the resistance of blogging and just being here.

I hope you’re all doing well and thank you for your patience and ongoing support. 💛

2 responses to “I’m Struggling With Writing A Blog Post”

  1. Oh, I feel this deeply, and I’m so glad you wrote and posted this. I too struggle with perfectionist tendencies, especially when it comes to writing.

    These lines spoke to me the most:

    “I don’t want to be social. I don’t want to be perfect. I don’t want to have to worry about who is here. I don’t want to worry.

    All I want is to not only feel the love and passion of my writing come back but to also get out of my own way.”

    Yeah. Let’s get out of our own ways. We’re usually the only ones stopping ourselves.

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    1. I’m so happy that this post was able to be relatable and that not one but multiple lines spoke to you, that’s amazing!

      Wishing you the best with your future writing and the growth it takes to overcome perfectionism!

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